Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Intemperate as ever

Shhhhhhh...It's Oh So Quiet....shhhhh....shhhhhh...It's Oh So Stale....Shhhhhhhh...

I haven't slept yet tonight. Can't sleep. Desperately want to. It's pretty much morning, now. I've taken another set of pills, hopefully they will push me over the Sandman's ledge and my eyes will...close.

That's Bjork up there, by the way.

And, of course, tonight is one of those nights where the house is all creaky. And Tony isn't home. And I have five million things I need to do tomorrow, including mailing Christmas presents so they hopefully get where they are going in time.

Happily, tomorrow is the last day of the steroid pack of pills I'm on for my back. I think they are the root of my insomnia. I've had trouble sleeping at night since I started taking them (5 days-ish ago). I think they've helped the back problem -- though it's a little hard to tell, in a way -- and I won't know for sure until after a while. At which point I have to see the Dr. again and decide whether to go for the epidural treatment.

But I'd really like to sleep right now.

I did catch some Zzzzzz's today/(technically) yesterday morning after I dropped Tony off at the airport. I wanted to make sure I'd catch the UPS guy, so I slept on the couch, fitfully, but did not fall off. But, hoo-boy, what weird dreams! I think that must be another side effect. It wasn't specifically listed, but "possible psychotic episodes" was, so hey, weird dreams aren't exactly unlikely.

I'm so ready to move.

Not ready in the "everything packed and set to go" sense, but ready in the "Louisville has ground me down and I can't take it anymore" sense. I don't think I ever want to live Southern again. I knew it from that stint in Mississippi, but I didn't have a choice then being as I was just a teenager. And yes, I know that Florida is technically about as South as you get for the U.S., but there's a big difference between Florida and Kentucky.

Trust me.

Some of it is unreasonable of me, I know. But once I'm done...well, I'm just done. Stick a fork in me and all that.

I really, really want to go to sleep.

1 comment:

Pamela Karr said...

I sleep best in the mid-afternoon myself. What would we do without cats?