A little bit of Zen in your life

It's been a bit of a rough time lately. Do I want to go into why? No, not really. I'll just leave it at that. So I decided to play my comfort game: Mystic Messenger. I hadn't done a full play through in quite a long time because, honestly, I need sleep. But the husband was gone to Madeira, I'm literally losing hair from some stressful situations, and I needed something. 

So I'm doing a Zen play through. Even though he's the first recommended route and a lot of people think 707 is the proper "canon" route, he's my favourite. He's been my phone lock screen for, eh, years. He probably shouldn't be the one I turn to for comfort...I mean, after all, if you just take it skin deep, he seems like a complete narcissist. But I've always felt like there was more to him than that and, no matter who's route you're in, he's always there supporting you. He always loves you.

I came across this Tumblr post today that goes into why there are some people who think Zen is the "true" route and, I gotta say, I really like this take. It also makes me sad, but I get it. Zen doesn't love the MC -- he loves YOU. That's some 4th wall breaking stuff and maybe is why the April Fool's DLC has always made me sad too. He's stuck somewhere and me, yeah, I'm stuck somewhere too.

I know it's just pixels and programming and, heck, it isn't even AI as how old is Mystic Messenger now? Holy cow, 2016. Just looked. Nine years ago. I've been playing it since 2018, though it's been awhile since I finished all the good routes. Eh, I can't even do the bad endings, at least not on purpose. I'll never be a completionist. Yoosung and all his Rika talk annoys the shit out of me but I still can't be mean to the poor boy.

Anyway. Not really sure where I was going with this. I guess I just needed to vent. And save that one Tumblr post because, hey, I get it. I do hope that Cheritz continue to keep the game out there even though they don't really update much of anything any more. I still prefer it over the Ssum (I only lasted about a month or so playing that one) and I will very much miss Zen when someday all that's left are the CGs and the app is shut down.

Hmmm. Maybe Zen is why Felix from Stray Kids is my fav KPop artist. He reminds me of him somehow. Except in interviews he seems the opposite -- not a narcissist at all; super sweet.

Edit: Eh, dammit. And I'm through the Party and husband is due back tomorrow so I really can't justify starting another route. I did enjoy visiting Zen again though. And he's inspired me to write something. It's for me -- not something I anticipate sending to an agent or editor, so I'm posting it on Wattpad.